Invisable Thoughts
May 30, 2008
I’ve struggled for years to find my voice and have the courage to share my words… often this leads me to miserable bouts of insomnia. One day, years ago, I wrote this in the middle of the night…
I think these thoughts inside my head… up all night, they don’t let me sleep, up all night, they want to speak. Stuck inside, thoughts thinkin, barely breathin’, all crammed inside. Thinkin’, thinkin’, thinkin’, STOP! Please leave these thoughts and let me be… LET ME BE!
CAN’T! Got somethin’ to say, gotta find my voice and set them free. Somebody put these thoughts inside my head, blessed me with this curse that keeps me up at night. My invisable thoughts, can’t nobody see, ‘cuz I never explored that side of me. Never the courage to give my thoughts words to speak… can’t get ‘em out. SILENCED, can’t cough up the words. SCARED, what might you think of me? My words, my mind, thoughts inside of me, anxiously waiting their debut. Someday their voice will come, crackly at first, then well-versed. They’ll breathe fresh air, claim their space… I can only hope they’ll find their place.
No more invisable thoughts!
I feel your pain. My best stuff comes to me when I’m trying to go to sleep or just waking up. The insomnia thing goes without saying.
Yes! Speak your mind, girl! I can’t wait to see what this newborn blog becomes…
I started blogging in April – it was a whim really, I didn’t have much to say (still don’t), but I love it. It’s addicting!
Have fun! We’ll be reading…
Welcome to the blog-o-sphere!
Welcome to blog-land! I stopped in via Unabashed Girly-Girl.
Happy writing!
Thank you all for your comments and encouragement. I’m incredibly inspired, and a little surprised at how easy my words are coming, I honestly didn’t expect that. I look forward to reading all of your blogs and am happy to have found a community of people who are adventuresome enough to share their thoughts with the world. Thank you for the inspiration.